Tuesday, September 8, 2009



As the title says, I will stop blogging from now on, due to some reasons.

If I were to blog again. I will create another new blog.

This blog is history.


Wednesday, August 26, 2009



My flight has been comfirmed on 27th August.

Time : 2359 (why don't just put 0000 -.-??)


Kuala Lumpur International Airport (Depart : 2359)

Dubai International Airport (Arrive : 0300, Depart 0955)

Toronto City Centre Airport (Arrive 1545, Depart 1835)

Edmonton International Airport (Arrive : 2040)

Well, I have plenty hours at Dubai International Airport, so hmm.. what we gonna do??

Yeah! VISIT PALM ISLAND =)) The first man-made island..

It's gonna be fun!! =)) Hehe.. anyway.. going to KL 2moro morning.. gonna visit my brother at kampar to say goodbye =(..

So, for all my friends take care and have a safe flight!

Kin & Natalie, see you soon ^^

Hampao, although I have left, but my hearts is still there with you, take a good care yea.. will be in contact again after i got my new lappie.. which I'll get it IMMEDIATELY when I reach there..

Once, again.. goodbye my friends and family, gonna miss you guys..

And miss the food in Malaysia T.T..

Till then, good night..

This will be my last post in Malaysia!


Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Materialistic and hypocritical


Looking from your own perspective, who should be condemned? (honestly, there's no right or wrong)

1. A person who spends $100 million over something that he needs, or another person who wastes $1 over something that he don't need.

2. A person who donates $100 million insincerely, or a person who donates $1 sincerely.

3. A rich person donates $1 sincerely, or a poor person donates $100 insincerely (just to show off he had gave up everything he has)

I think the answer that I will receive will be on both sides. And I think some people will be dishonest too.

There's no need to be dishonest, you don't need to tell me. Ask yourself.

I am somehow upset over an issue, it is related to the questions above.

I believe Jesus don't judge people or actions based on quantity, but QUALITY.

But some still can't get it.

Because materialistic people are "quality-blinded". The more (quantity) they had, the better they feel.

Despite of this, I don't blame anyone who is materialistic but I just hate those who are materialistic yet HYPOCRITICAL!

Today, people are born to be materialistic though.

Just ask the fellow Christians, how many of them fulfill their 10% tithe every month? And also, how many of them do it just for God or just merely hope for more MONEY to come? I have come across many people who wished the latter.

I am very very upset right now, but anyway, I'm bonded, there's no use to whine.


Wednesday, August 5, 2009



I'm in Taylor's library.. haha,,. managed to infiltrate through the sleepy librarian :P, but in wet condition -.-

Anyway, submitted my passport, will get my visa tommorrow.

HAHA! Again... I'm proud of my infiltrating skils... ;)


Monday, August 3, 2009

Sad.. can't join you guys in penang trip.


Will not join you guys in penang trip. Sorry =(

Will be replaced with KL trip. (again)...

By the way, just a reminder for the trip-pers...

Be sure to get a mask!! acH-One-aN-One is getting serious in Penang!!!

P/S : I'm cancelling this trip not because of acH-One-aN-One..


Sunday, July 12, 2009

Love knows no obstacles


Last friday, we planned to play basketball together on the next evening. But it rains on that day. So, we delay for the next day loh... and it rains again!

Do you think it's fate does all these??

If so, is this evil?

Well, as for me no matter it's fate or not, it makes no difference. Though I somehow desperated to see you, and even though it seems like the whole world is separating us...

They can't stop me from loving you ^^

P/S : Gonna refresh my driving skills =)

*It's been a month I did not blog 0.0*


Friday, June 12, 2009

Closing Diary of Taylor's ICPU


You've already know what is it gonna be about

Finally got things to write already.. HAHA! *credits to chook teng*

It seems like this one year has gone... very very VERY FAST!!!! It's faster than a blink of eye.

I still remember, I stepped in to Taylor's college with my parents "gong gong" and don't know look around there.

Today, I can tell you I know almost every rooms @ Taylor's (almost la =P)

Before that, we called each other by names

Today, we have such names as Muhammad, Monkey, Babi (many babis), H1N1, etc etc...

I still remember at night 1805 is the noisiest when we shout "NOOB LAH YOU!" or "FASTER KILL HIM!!" or "WALAO EH.." or "CCB LU" or "MAHAI LU" or most commonly "DotA! DotA!"

But I still remember we got play pudge wars =)

Here's some random pics...

It's time for Friend's Profile! =)))

Let's start with my very first friends, the 1801's

Lee Wei Yik (Monkey)
- A tall (but shorter than me), monkey-like creature in 1801.. lol!! Same class with me in ENG3U last year. Genius yet, monkeyish... so in short, he is Genius Monkey... hehe..

Keng Wei Jin
- Cool, muscular and always build muscle one.. same class with me in ICS4M last year.

Lim Yi Heng
- Short a bit, cool~ muscular? Quiet, always lock himself in the room... haaahhh~~ do what arh?? =P.. Helpful, especially in linen changing.. hehe... he should get more community hours.. lol..

- Tall, a lot of hairs all over the body, genius... he get spesel award what.. (but I beat him in Advanced Functions! =( not fair...), same class in chemistry and advanced functions.

Now let's move on to our neighbour's gang.. the 1805's

Ernest Seow Zhi Quan (EE/H1N1 - recently?)
- Aha! Those who're in facebook sure kenal this guy one. I no need to describe, you can describe him yourself. Kuat syok sendiri.. lol! He called himself Entao Ernest, even his birthday cake also got.. LOL. Same EAP/IELTS class. Already famous for our Abortion video.. HAHA! In class always talk cock but say me talk cock -.-

Derek Ng (Pork Weng)
- If you one day hear alot of *toot toot* words from 1805 ah.. the probability who speaks is him.. lol... same calculus class... but very diam..

Soh Chin Hui
- Last sem top scorer in physics. See like very diam but I heard he got lots of "secret agenda"???

Tay Ho Ming
- Not know him much, because he joined 1805 later.. just know he with Shu Woon.

Liong Siew Chek
- Same physics class, I heard they all said his mandarin very weird??

Ong Shang Khoon
- Hmm.. can say the most popular guy in 1805. Quoted Mr Smiley by who arh??

Seow Zhen Liang (Babi also?)
- Same Advanced Functions class. A genius but.............................(...)

My Other Friends

My Hamlet GroupAbdullah (Polonius)
- The only malay guy that work in my group ever before..

Wahida (Ghost/Horatio)
- Haha.. she likes to say... deeeeniiiisssseeeee~~~

Chook Teng (Ophelia)
- Muaahhaha.. she's the one who gave me this idea. Kind.. cute... and "small" =P Good at making eye contact and wink... ;)

Denise (Queen)
- Everyone knows her.. a good actress too... the driver of our group project.

Julia (King)
- Eeeeeeeehheheheheheheheheheeeee (I dunno how to express it in word form, Julia knows it =P).. One of the most kind and smart girl and smile a lot... Don't need to rest one.. =P

- haha... one of the best guy I ever met! funny, hillarious, serious, can swap emotions with bits of seconds.. lol.. Used to be same class in ENG3U.. I still remember our drama is the Oscar award winning one *exagerating*. Those who had the video please contact me!!!

Anderson (KK Monkey version)
- I actually met him in the first day.. just that we did not talk much.. but when it comes to 2nd sem.. as crazy as monkey.. LOL..

- Like Julia, smile a lot...a very nice girl.. and she's the valedictorian for this year.. yay! Why I'm so happy? Because she's BM people.. HAHAAH!! XD

- Also met him in the first day... then hilang d.. meet back on 2nd sem.. please speak BM to him =)

- cold joker, you need to bring your winter clothes..

Ying Yi
- reserved at the beginning, dunno what she eat until she become very sociable after holidays.. same advanced functions class.

Shu Woon
- same ENG4U class

- Day dreaming gal... ~.~ currently waiting for her "prince charming"

- Not know.. nice... quiet or not i don't know.. but I choose her to be secretary one don't forget =P

Wei Wei
- Haha.. tutor her properly oo.. if not she beat you 99...

- "Small"? A nice girl, quiet... (but in LAN class of course quiet laaa)

- "Small" also.. same advanced functions class

- He's already popular by the time I know him. I'm so outdated -.-

- Used to be EAP classmate by didn't talk.. not until in calculus class.. where he's my side-mate. Combination of I and him that always win quiz =P

- Not knowing much of her... but she's going U of A.. yay!! =)

Nian Yi
- I heard a lot about you.. hehe..


Thank you for entering my life. I know most of you will be exiting my life, but I know that you guys are leaving footprints in my heart right? =) You guys are just awesome! =) Life rockz with you guys.. haha!! Without you all I don't know where I will be now. Thank you for going through ups and downs with you guys. I remember we worked till late midnight before the Hamlet presentation. So, I wish you all the best (all of ICPU graduates) for pursuing your dreams and make your dreams.. come true...and for those who flying to Canada, best of luck in getting the universities that you wanted and pursue your dreams course and career in the future. Oh I just heard that Chook Teng got UBC already.. congrats... see.. dreams come true =)

To be updated if needed.... =)

P/S : Listen to the song.. specially dedicated to all my beloved friends ^^

Thinking that I have forgotten someone?

The answer is - NO! Of course not =)

Want write also, got special page one laaaaa~~!! XD

With so many witnessess.. of course, she's Ham Pao Wen Hui =)

Let's be continue like just now..

Wen Hui

Reserved, quiet, & hardworking at first impression.. you know what? She's the first girl that I know when I came to Taylor's University College. In computer science class, did not sit beside each other yet. But, when the first presentation is given, I've been assigned with her. Oh, that's where all starts!

After done with the slides, board rapidKL bus for the first time with her, also mean the first time that I board rapidKL.. lol! *Sorry no photos* hehe...

On the same time, she told me that she's in my ENG3U class as well, then only I notice her in the class.. (cos she sit behind mar.... =_=)

First one month - Seldom talk, but it starts after I had some 'tragic incident'. She's the only one I tell. Ok, feel better after expressing.. hehe... (haven't start yet hah!)

Since that, we start to get closer, especially in computer science class, sit together, always peeking at her screen (hehe.. she never know that.. ooops =x).. and help her to solve problems..

Towards the end of first semester, started to go out together.. oh and I'm invited to her church.. (malcolm also got.. he jadi saksi!!)..

Oh.. ok la.. take five... nah...

Five minutes done!

Hehehe... the end of ICPU.. starts to know her more.. this is where the "gossips" starts.. I dunno who start it... *For those who start it or know who start it, kindly report to me IMMEDIATELY* lol.. just kidding.

Also, we went back together in by bus to butterworth (since she had joined penang tribe... *bleak to malcolm*), in bus.. of course.. learn a lot from her and about her.

Hehe.. ciplak some of her pics.. =P

*please be patient.. I know what you're thinking*

Yup, this is from these posts, I'm sure you guys remember..


So, this is the end of First Semester...

Uh oh? It's not over yet..!

2nd sem! Checked the new timetable.. no same class... ouwh =(, but got same break, yay =)

So, we like normal, go church together, online chat together, but one thing is, the "gossipers" are getting active on that time onwards =_=...

You know, gossip is one of the factor.. =) So should I say thank you?

And then, the gossipers are getting wilder and wilder.. on March 1Xth incident (dowan so obvious =P)... it leads to.. confession.. n yeah.. your patience ends here..

So, first up... KL Tower trip..

Helped in hamlet assignment... remember we chat & listen to songs at basketball court till 12am++ lol!! Luckily no guards halau...

Finally, did CPTs together.. since we do all same sources =)

As for final outing, sunway lagoon~~

Got more pictures... but don't want post too much.. secret.. hehe..

So that concludes the major events of me and her.. =)

Regarding the First Impression,

Now - Talkative, silly, laugh a lot, sweat a lot (hehe..), smart, clever, kind, care, realistic, think-ative, presentationphobia (no longer?), speaking test phobia, heightphobia.

Likes - Me =P, nian yi, family & friends, coffee, starbucks frapuccino, starbucks, swimming pool & AC teh ais or panas, fishy, JRYF curry house's curry, kak su, cantonese fried noodle @ banana leaf, twister, BoA, Rain, DBSK, physics, maths, philosophy, her icpu textbooks, 100%, ms nicole, AH BEN!

Dislikes - wear formal, assignments, essays, chemistry, pork, fatty part of chicken, sweat, jaggut, ...

*some are kept undisclosed though*

To Ham Pao =),

Thank you for walking into my life. Through you, I've becoming more mature as I were today. I learn to apprecitate my friends and family more than before. I've learn to work harder because no pain, no gain, and because of you, I stop becoming lazy and learn to wake up earlier. Because of you, I learn to control my anger and agresiveness (die to my sensitivity). Thank you for listening when I share my problems with you and thank you for allowing me to listen when you got problems. Thank you for being there all the time when I need someone or when I'm alone. Thank you for helping me throughout my life with you and thank you too for allowing me to help.

Though we gonna be separated for four years by the distance of 2710 km, by the time zone difference of 02:00, and by the flight hour difference of 4 hours, I believe that all these numbers remains a number, and a number has no power to decide what our love outcome will be. I believe our love is bounded by God's grace and love and He will bless, prosper, and protect us always when we are apart from each other.

I LOVE YOU =))))

Monday, June 1, 2009

It's over!!

Yeah, it's over... hooray?? aww?? Which one?

The answer is both...

It has been a memorable year, so memorable that photographs are not required too... hehe if you want to see the pictures go facebook laaaa... since everyone also got..

Well... nothing much to say, because it's too much things to say.

Sad? Happy? Excited? Depressed? All are in me now..

Thank you to everyone that have walked into my life, I don't know how to pay back you guys.. =) Just a little thanks would not enough...

Thank you to my lecturers: Ms Nicole, Mr Allan, Mr Ben, and Mr Tong (for not barring me.. LOL)

Hehe.. well? Sorry no inspiration now.. may write more when I have =)


Sunday, May 17, 2009

Remote Alarm Clock Switch - Rube Goldberg


Aha! This is our rube goldberg project! It was a success, and simple, because...



Friday, May 15, 2009

Prophecy in progress...


40 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
80 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
120 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
121 days left, I wish I was ignorant of that, before I sleep,
If the 120 day incident happened.


Saturday, May 2, 2009

I have two days left..


Imagine that you have two days left. What you gonna do? What you wanna do?

As for me, I can't imagine that. I don't have to, it's a reality.

Two days left, in about 48 hours, and my destiny is known.

I wish I could go on, but now where I'll go, will be determined by The Dictators.

There's only two paths, but I have no rights to choose.

Even though I'm standing right at the junction, still, I can't choose.

Although I'm not blind, yet, I need to be blind.

I wanted to choose that path. But still, they will choose for me.

I have given enough choice, and I know I'm the one who choose to go to that junction,

And now, I have two days left.

I have a lot of things to do.

I don't wanna end yet,

Please, O God,

I still wanna live.


Monday, April 27, 2009

I'm somewhat worried~


Today, my mom called me with a shocking news. I don't know is it a good thing or a bad thing - A Warning Letter.

I know I shouldn't babble here but just let me express it ok? =(

I know it's my own fault, why I so kei kiang always skip LAN class le? Now I have to pay the price.

By the way, it's a warning letter from Taylor's. (I hope it's from the Sponsorship Unit - means JPA), otherwise, if that is from Taylor's ICPU office, I can't imagine what will JPA think about it? But my mom told me JPA is mentioned, so probably (hopefully) is from the Sponsorship Unit.

I don't wanna mention the number, it's nothing good to mention it here.

Another thing, just now I reread the handout about the Compulsary Subjects info, and now my attendance could be lower than the requirement. Is that mean it's the end?

I don't know, I shall talk to Mr Tong tomorrow, hope he'll allow me to sit for the final exam, and that's my first relief.

Is this the end? If really I couldn't fly already, I rather be kicked out RIGHT NOW rather than still working hard not knowing what will happen thereafter.

If you're angry with me, you should, thanks for your concern if you do!

Is this the end? It's me who have caused this.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I have sinned,

And again, I want to ask for Your forgiveness,
Please forgive me for such attitude,
From now on, I'm gonna attend every classes,
Not going to skip any classes,

And I pray that all of us (not only me), who are in the same situation as me,
That You will help them, give me and them a second chance.
I pray in Jesus' name. Amen.

Oh?? It's no use to regret now, we'll see what will happen tomorrow.


Wednesday, April 22, 2009

I don't wanna know - Sheryl Crow


I heard the song, it was all around
Everyone's quitting, everyone's breaking down
I called your house on the telephone
Nobody answered, but I know you're home

All in all, it's nature's poetry
I can't understand the way it flows
I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
Cuz everything I know makes me feel so low
No, I don't wanna know

I pushed a button just to find my way
I got directions but I'm still lost today
I see her smiling, but her eyes were dead
Nobody's crying, that's what paper said

All in all, it's nature's poetry
I can't understand the way it goes
I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
Cuz everything I know makes me feel so low
No, I don't wanna know

All in all, it's nature's poetry
Can't understand the way it flows
So I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
Cuz everything I know makes me feel so low
No, I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
No, I don't wanna know
Cuz everything I know makes me feel so low
No, I don't wanna know

The song makes me think, isn't this good? Just unaware of anything - being ignorant? Which is better? Just to be ignorant and be happy or to know and be sad?

Sometimes what we perceive everyday will not be always a good thing. Good things comes along with bad things. It is as if, they're bonded, like magnetic poles (physics again -.-)

Although they came together, but they may came in inequal proportion. In other words, some people may get happiness more than sadness, while some others the other way round.

Me? Don't wanna talk about it. I don't really know it's really a good one or bad one. Can't weigh it.

40 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
80 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
120 days left, before separation, I wish I was ignorant of that.
121 days left, I wish I was ignorant of that, before I sleep,
If the 120 day incident happened.


Saturday, April 18, 2009

Hamlet TableAux Assignment


Finally presented!! And it was good, good job my teammates =)

My 5 am - 10 am sleep (although I skip first two classes... hehe).. is worth the credit! =))

Despite there are many arguments among us, but it's the arguments that produced a good presentation! Thanks again ^^

Ok... now here's the movie slide show..

We also have some candid shots!

Our King & Queen!


Random Picture

Looking at??

The two "Spesel Guest" aka KPCs... ahahaha :P

Prisoner # - __________ Oh.. blank.. I don't feel good.. :P

Finally... Our group photo =)

And after we did everything...



P/S : Next group assignment still we group ok?? =) Our group is the best of the world!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Adult Questions & Answers for Real Fun (18SX)


I got this e-mail a few days ago and I thought of posting it.

Anyways.. enjoy!

Q: What's the difference between cricketers and condoms?
A: Cricketers drop the catches and condoms catches the drops.

Q: What is the difference between riding a bicycle and a woman?
A: Riding a bicycle you fix your ass & move your legs, riding a woman you fix your legs & move your ass.

Q: What three things are common between the sun and woman's underwear?
A: Both are hot, both look better while going down and both disappear at night.

Q: Why do men ask for a woman's hand in marriage?
A: Because they are tired of using their own.

Q: What's common between men and video?
A: Both go backward... forward... backward... forward... backward.... forward... stop and eject.

Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?
A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5-7 days and if it doesn't come means you are in big trouble

Q: What goes in dry, comes out wet, and gives warm satisfaction?
A: A teabag.

* 7 qualities to be a perfect wife:

and Self-Organized.

In short, she must have good B.R.E.A.S.T. S

Q: Who is a gynecologist?
A: He is the only fool on the earth who looks for problems in a place, where most people find pleasure.

Q: What is the similarity between men and rats?
A: Both keep searching for new HOLES.

Q: What's the difference between biology and sociology?
A: When the baby looks like his dad, then it is biology. When the baby looks like neighbour, then it is sociology.

Q: What's the height of recycling?
A: Sending a sanitary napkin for dry cleaning.

Doctor: You look so weak & exhausted.. Are you having 3 meals a day as I have advised?
Lady: Doctor, I thought you had said 3 males a day.

Q: Girl friend & boy friend go for a movie. In the dark, a mosquito enters the girl's skirt. Guess where it would have bitten?
A: The boy's hand......

* Tarzan and the animals went to the river to take a bath. Tarzan removed his clothes. All the animals laughed. Tarzan asked "Why"?
The animals told him......... .."Your tail is in the front"

Last but not least Secret of long life...
Morning two eggs, evening two pegs......and night between two legs



Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter Day!

Dropping by just to say,


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Full Stop


Sentences, and sentences, and sentences,
You wrote yourself from day to day,
It's somewhat we called like no tomorrow,
But you'll always continue tomorrow,
The formation that you stand entertains me no more,
Just like a poor player, idiotic clowns,
That don't even amuse me,
It looks happy, it looks sad,
But perhaps, when I read you, I'm sad.
Because the way you are hurt me!
I wish I can erase,
But you'll never rephrase,
Not even a single
You keep going, letting me read,
The words that make me lost,
Enough playing me,
Put a full stop now

Gah!!!! Just ignore this piece of crap. XD
Finally got an inspiration to wrte something mar... =)


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Let the LORD decides ok?


Finally... after the HARSH week, this week is a relaxing week. It's been a while (just a while?) where we have our last break. (Do March holiday considered a break?)

But this free time makes me think a lot.. makes me think back... back... backward... and I only realised that we only have 2 months left =(

O it's gonna... it's gonna end!!!! DDD=...

Yesterday, something happened. I won't disclosed it here, but it makes my life seems to be 2 months left!..

I felt hopeless...

I almost forgotten my reason for coming here... to FLY, to study, to work, and to what?

I read so many blogs (friend's) that talking about this too. Yes, we have to cherish every moment that we have now.. You won't know tommorrow whether you'll be opening your eyes or not.. *not trying to scare*

Despite of this, after thinking and speak to God a while, He gave me the answer, He tell me not to worry.

Finally, I realised, I still remember my purpose here. I still remember what my parents hope for me... I will never ever disappointed them!!


I still have one last wish... and it's a hard one... it's a dillemma... (if i could call that a that)...


I hereby surrender to you, O Lord!
I surrender my only wish to you,
That will extend or shorten my life,
I pray, I pray, that you'll make,
The best decision,
Whatever it is, I know you hide
Something good from me,
Therefore, I trust in you,
Believe in your decision,
When You decided, I'll say the LORD has spoken!

Please make the best decision for... US!



Monday, March 30, 2009

The Interview with God


Instead of preaching long long here... I have found a short, concise, yet attractive way to inspire everyone.

You should be grateful with what you have and stop complaining!


Sunday, March 29, 2009

What color is your blog?


Well I like purple though =) and black is close to purple (according to me :P)

Credits to : http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorshouldyourblogorjournalbequiz/


You have lost, Satan!


Sorry for the lame post about ignorancy.. having "PMS" on that time.. LOL

Yesterday night is really a struggle, I battled Satan all the way from midnight to 11 am. And the battles still continues...

It was over when I see you, Satan is completely casted out from me... haha... Loser!

And then went to church.. and I hear the Holy Spirit speaks to me, telling me that to have FAITH, and "lean not to [my] own understanding" (Proverbs 3:5). And so I did, somewhat I spiritually strong during the worship.. Wow! I never had that strong before. =)

This verse, Proverbs 3:5 really meant to me and I know, many of you! In my previous life, I lived in my own way, not knowing that it's a Satanic way. The result is, I often quarrel with my parents, friends, ex, etc etc. I always think that they know nothing and I know everything, just because my scores are better them all of them -.-.

I'm a bad boy, I sometimes curse my parents too... (SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! =/). And once a tragic incident happens to me (not going to disclose it publicly), I felt I was stranded, nobody cares me, I felt, for the true first time, LONELY. It appears that everyone despises me, but finally, I came to realise that it's me who despises myself, couldn't believe that my own understanding is wrong. I was struggling to find the truth, and guess what I found? - Jesus Christ.

He teaches me many things, but Proverbs 3:5 really marks the turning point of my life. Don't mistaken that now I don't have my own stand, I do have. I have God's stand =)

The Satan that I mean here is - Vanity

However, this naughty little devil won't let me go that easy. And he came into me again in another form.

This time is he's stronger, and had controlled my heart at some moments. This feeling had led me to get emo unexpectedly. And of course, I throw it to her (sorry =/). As a result, my 1-year relationship dissolved slowly. AND IT DOES! I have no other choice, but to let go everything in order to achieve liberty, and finally, although losing her, Satan is lost again! This time, again, with the help of Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I won again! Woohoo!!! Praise the Lord!!!


Satan still got balls and guts to come and bother me again (very annoying right?). Still the same form. Although I had experience coping with it, I still can't. The emotions at one point still controls me. I prejudiced people that I shouldn't! And I shouldn't hate the one that I love, since love and hate can't be together. This has been going a very long time. And sometimes I just want to gave up everything. But I know it, from the reassurance from you, I know what's in you!

This gives me hope, and sometimes still, the emotions overcomed me, and the trust overcomed my emotions, and it repeats, periodically, with huge amplitudes. (You can't plot it in GC because it's way too big! XD)

Guess what? Jesus heard my cry, and so he planted "capacitor" to smoothen my emotions and to stabilize it (since when became electronics? -.-)

It was today, that I prayed strongly, strong in the spirit, and that's the moment I kick Satan's ball goodbye! :P

The form that I mean here is - Jealousy


So, let's talk about vanity and jealousy in general!

Vanity - A negative yet synonymous to pride. Most of us know though, in Pride and Prejudice, pride is what we think about ourselves and vanity refers to what others think about you. But most of the time, people see a proud person as vanity, so therefore, pride can be sometimes equal to vanity.

In order to avoid vanity, don't be proud in the first place. Here's a quote from the Great Book,

"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom" (Proverbs 11:2)

But we can't live to be always think that we're inferior than others, aha.... here's another one.

"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight" (Jeremiah 9:23-24)

So, what do you think? You can boast... Boast about the Lord! =)

Here's more (because I lazy to elaborate and Bible verses are more effective),

"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share a plunder with the proud" (Proverbs 16:18-19)

"Pride only breeds quarrels, but wisdom s found in those who take advice" (Proverbs 13:10)

"God guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way" (Psalm 25:9)

"God mocks proud mockers but gives grace to the humble" (Proverbs 3:34)

Jealousy - an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship (from Wikipedia.org) - I LOVE WIKIPEDIA! =3

Jealousy occurs mostly in relationships, but it can occur in other forms too.

According to Attachment Theory, relationships can be divided into four situations - secure, pre-occupied, dismissive-avoidant, and fearful-avoidant. (click to see it's definition, because I don't want to copy paste =/)

But to give you a clear picture of these, let's arrange it in terms of possiblities for deterioration of relationships in ascending order.

Secure, Dismissive-avoidant, Pre-occupied, Fearful-avoidant

Aha! The reason I highlighted pre-occupied is because it's a very common one, and Jealousy falls in this category. Even me too fall into it. I did a survey last time and it is calculated that I'm about 80% pre-occupied =/ (forgot which website liao.. soli... hehe)

Anyways, now that you have understand what is pre-occupied you can know where jealousy comes from. It's simple. You just think that your partner did not commit as much as you do and you feel that he or she don't love you back.

Ok, now that you have understand psychotic analysis of relationships, now let's turn back to the Great Book. (I'll will only refer to those who are in pre-occupied state)

"Better a patient man than a warrior, a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city" (Proverbs 16:32)

"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace" (Ephesians 4:2-3)

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23)

"Be wise, and keep your heart on the right path" (Proverbs 23:19)

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God" (Phillippians 4:6)

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" (Matthew 6:27)

Enough already gua...? Ok laaa.... one final one... and my most favourite verse =)

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record on wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres" (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

So, do you really love?


Saturday, March 28, 2009

My price is paid...


I would like to thank all of you that have helped me from the beginning I stepped into this college till now. Especially you =).

I have paid JPA the price. Average 6.5 band in IELTS and I got 7.0.
Listening - 7.0, Reading - 8.0, Writing - 6.0 and Speaking 6.0.

My friends say I lanC wor... put first language English... if not I can get 7.0 for writing and speaking. (according to them)

Anyway, if I get 7.0 in these two sections also, my average is still 7.0... haha..

Thanks to 'you' for keep praying for me =)

And finally of course, all the credits will be given to God Almighty because without Him, I am nothing..

Praise the Lord.. Hallelujah!!!!


Teach me to be ignorant!!!! ~.~

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Don't let Failures DICTATE you!

First of all, congratulations for those who passed their IELTS exams..
Cheer up for those who couldn't..
Good luck for those who gonna resit..
Good luck for those who gonna take the result this Friday (including me =])
Congratulations for those who are happy with the results
Congratulations for those who never give up
Congratulations for working hard for it
Congratulations for doing their best
Congratulations for.... [anything else?]

Ok.. personally, I'm kinda scared too. I know everybody does. A band 6.5 is already more than enough for me. (for the sake of JPA)

You know what? I don't like the way IELTS is conducted. It's exam-based. Exam-based means "do-or-die". And it's the most stupidest form of evaluation ever in this planet! Ah Ben seems to agree with me, he said that OSSLT is ridiculous!

Although it's absurd, but we have to face it though.. since we're dictated by JPA.

Ok.. enough complaining here.

No matter what happen, just face it and be happy, because with joy, failures turns into success! Here let me share something with you from the Great Book.

"Be joyful always" (1 Thessalonians 5:16)

"A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones" (Proverbs 15:30)

"Be happy... while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth" (Ecclesiates 11:9)

You see... our life is short and we have to be happy to the max because we won't have a second chance to live. Plus [can't resist using this word =P], Jesus said,

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour of his life?" (Matthew 6:27)

So what do you say? I don't want to waste every single second of my life without happiness. It would just like cutting your life short.

Specially dedicated to someone,

Stuffs happens, nobody lives without failures. Like Thomas Edison said,

"I would not say I failed 1000 times, but I would say that I discovered 1000 ways that can cause failure"

Congratulations because you already discovered some (just kidding ^^)

Just have faith in yourself, failing once doesn't mean that you will fail always.

Here it's just some small sincere gift from me to enlighten you =)

"Our present [failures] are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed to us" (Romans 8:18)

"Consider it pure joy... whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." (James 1:2-3)

"We also rejoices in our [failures], because we know that [failures] produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope" (Romans 5:3-4)

"You will surely forget your troubles,
recalling it as waters gone by.
Life will be brighter than noonday,
and darkness will become like morning.
You will be secure, because there's hope;
you will look about you and take your rest in your safety."
(Job 11:16-18)

So, hey... there's always a pathway to success no matter where you are. It's just the matter of HOW YOU FIND IT.

May this post enlightens your days to come =)

And for the rest of you, Good luck and be happie always! (let's pray hard ^^)


Monday, March 23, 2009





Lol... I'm so excited because:
1. It only took me less than 24 hrs to finish the whole book
2. My target (in previous post) completed
3. I finish first :P


Sunday, March 22, 2009

Just Over, Just Started


A few more hours to go, and it's gonna be a hectic life again..

Malaysian Studies, Ah Tong say it's gonna be 100000000000x more interesting than Moral... maybe for me, it's 100000000000x more worse than Moral.. LOL..

Calculus... not gonna skip anymore!!! *sorry Ms nicole :(*

English 4U... Hamlet... I don't understand.. I feel like English 3U is a lot better, facebook, drama, presentations... Now? essays, essays and ESSAYS!!!! It's becoming more like technical subjects -.-


CPT 2nd Novel... Gonna finish tonight!! If can? Cause I started TODAY!! Hehe..

And so it goes on...

Suffering - to undergo hardship (from Wiktionary.org)

A lot of people have wondered, why we need to suffer now? Haha... don't worry.. it's good to suffer now... because..

"We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that sufferings produces perseverance; perseverance, character; character, hope." (Romans 5 : 3-4)

So guess what? Want to suffer more? LOL...

Anyway, all the best to all my friends here to proceed on another stage of the journey of life.. ;)


P/S : We've got one more thing to suffer... FRIGGIN' slow internet connection!!!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Pride & Prejudice


Just watched Pride & Prejudice 2005 Movie. And guess what? *I shall type this in Manglish*


2005 Version1995 Version

The poster appears to be nice but guess what?

Let's make some character analysis

Let's start with.... Mr Darcy!

1995 Version

Perfectly suited with how that Mr Darcy is portrayed in the book! LanC look, barely smile, fierce-looking, looks smart and proud...

On the other hand,

2005 Version

OMGWTFROFLOLMAO!!!!! When he made he's first appearance in the show, we terus pengsan and someone couldn't wake up anymore..LOL... Haha... Plus, he looks dumb when he tries to act LanC.. *LanC test - FAILED lah!!!*

Ahahaha!!! But I can't stop laughing when he's acting LanC with DUMB look! So you may pass the Amusing Test!

*I know you're thinking of someone and smiled*

Aiyooo.. find more suitable actor lah!!! *ruining my reputation*

Next One : Elizabeth Bennet

1995 Version (right)

Although quite not so pretty.. (haha..just my view) but she has her LanC look as well, since Elizabeth is also described as LanC (proud) in the book.

In contrast,

I have to admit, this prototype of Elizabeth is damn damn friggin' hot & pretty!! But then, she should be Jane Bennet instead, since she don't have the LanC look. It's ok overall, just the LanC part.

*I know you're thinking of someone and smiled*

And then : Charles Bingley

1995 Version
Yea.. he's not so endao like described in the book but then, see this

2005 Version (right)
So what do you say? Who's more endao now... Plus, the 1995 Bingley acts more innocent.

Lastly : Jane Bennet

1995 Version (left)


2005 Version

I guess Jane has grown so much in 2005-1995 = 10 years!! ROFLOLMAO!!!!


Plus, there's lotzz of altered dialogues and scenes and so many ununderstandable plots!

I also see that 2005 Lydia gets sexcited easier than 1995 one.. =P

Get one for yourself, and you'll be in the same boat as mine.

According to Wikipedia, this movie is one of the Award Winning One!! I wonder?

Argh... See see the time now? Sleepy + hungry..